first of all, why are my twitter updates on the side of my blog not my own??? creepy. my blog has been mysteriously overtaken by aliens. but i guess that is my own fault because i don't do a very good job at guarding it...

second of all, i want my housewives of atlanta BACK. none of this housewives of orange county crap. that is my life every day (working at nordstrom). black people are funny. white people aren't. black people live in atlanta. blacklanta= funnier and more entertaining than orange TANty. therefore, houswives of atl>housewives oc. end of story. where is a "therefore" dot pyramid when you need one???

so i haven't blogged in a while. not much is new. just my job at nordstrom which is going decently well. it gives me a reason to get up and get dressed up every day which i like so that is good. other than that my spare time consists of working out with marleigh, my new gym buddy heather, and my "personal trainer" natalie. ha. and then i lay on the couch and watch tv at the end of the day because my feet hurt so bad from standing on them all day long and i'm so exhausted that really, i have no desire to do anything else.

moving on, bryce comes home in exactly two weeks which is beyond exciting. maybe i'll finally actually have somebody to hang out with that isn't as busy as me or my other friends...ha, we'll see about that...i'm starting to get kind of anxious because i haven't seen him in two years, and well kids, THAT'S A LONG TIME. what if it's awkward at first because we aren't used to being around each other? what if he's awkward like other recently returned missionaries? oh well, works going to be crazy for the next two weeks until he gets home because christmas is almost here, and i work retail, and my life is going to be a nightmare for the next two/three weeks, but i will make a lot of money so that is good :) so basically what i am saying is that i am going to be too busy to even think about being nervous about bryce.

in other news. i'm trying to figure out what my mom and i should do for christmas. it is just going to be her and i this year because my sister and john are staying in virginia and i highly doubt that stephen will come around. if anyone has any tips let me know :)

well i think that's all folks. tiger's too busy in house confinement to see me and i cancelled my date with adam lambert because everyone else was doing it so i must go and find ways to spend the remainder of my free time.

xoxo

lindsey/rindsey/rindzo-bearZ/linds/lizard

ciao!

L.A.M.B, D&B, Coach, Marc...

so word on the street today kids is that mama got a job at NORDSTROM. sales-girl in the handbag dept. sounds sassy. watch out fellow sales-girls, i arrive in peace, but also TO OUTSELL YOU.

in honor of the new job at my life-long mecca for the ultimate experience in fashion, luxury, and feeling fabulous, i am dedicating this post to the 2009 FALL MUST HAVES. but not just any fall must haves, LINDSEY'S FALL MUST HAVES. listen up and pay attention peeps.

#1. over-the-knee boots. they are EVERYWHERE. you will NOT be able to avoid them this fall.

#2. a faithful booty. choose a pair that is unique to your style.

#3. hot pink. don't ask questions. just do it.

#4. pretty blouses with pretty bows. and the great thing about this piece is that you can achieve almost any look you are going for just by switching up the print or color on the blouse!

#5. gray accessories. purses. headbands. boots. booties. heels. flats.

#6. plaid. duh. were any of you really surprised? plaid is the go-to fall staple that every girl should have in her closet. but this year you should be reinventing this basic fall essential by wearing it long over leggings, under some faux fur, and paired with some fab booties or over-the-knee boots (see above and below).

#7. a pair of leather leggings. real leather leggings (as shown here) will run you a pretty penny ($500+ to be exact) so ZARA.addict suggests scouting out some faux.

#8. a pair of harem pants as worn here by kim kardashian

#9. a leather statement piece such as this cropped faux leather jacket (recently purchased by none other than yours truly).

#10. last but certainly not least, any sort of faux fur vest/jacket/shawl/scarf to top-off a perfect fall ensemble.

and there you have it kids. ten pieces that must be in each and every one of your wardrobes this fall! that is, only if you want to be as hot as ZARA.addict... :)

FOUL MOOD

all i want to do is add leopard print on each side of my blog. that is all. is that so much for me to ask??? somebody please help asap. xoxo

second interview at nordstrom tomorrow. jesh. also just applied for a job as a buyer at ZARA. in spain. applier needs 3-5 years experience in similar job. HEY A GIRL CAN DREAM CAN'T SHE???

my allergies are out of control. especially when i go to bed at night. i think i am allergic to something in my room. I CAN'T SLEEP AT NIGHT AND THEN I HAVE TO GET UP AT 6 IN THE MORNING TO TAKE BENADRYL AND NYQUIL SO I CAN FINALLY SLEEP AND THEN I SLEEP UNTIL 2PM! SHEESH.

praise the santa ana winds for bringing us such delightful beach weather in the end of september (spent some great quality time with ash.wright at 29th street in del mar by all the cute doggies)!!!

looking forward to fidel's with the girls tomorrow night=my fav mexican food in the whole world and some of my fav people!

LOVE TO ALL--HAVE FAB WEEKEND FELLOW ZARA-ADDICTS :)

the vmas makes me want to dance

PEEVES

so i was a little disappointed with some things that came as a byproduct of this years' vmas.

first off, russell brand. some things that were said in his vma opener speech were totally and completely inappropriate. and this is coming from a girl who is considered the most inappropriate in a group of all non-mormon friends! first of all, it just bugs the shiz out of me when celebs talk politics. for realz. one of my biggest pet peeves of all time. just because you are on stage does not entitle you to worship the president as if he were a god or declare that socialized healthcare is the one thing the US needs to make it as good as the UK. also, comments made about katy perry, lady gaga, and megan fox, really just made we want to puke.

moving on. kanye. you're a jerk. get a life. has anyone else besides myself ever compared kanye to spencer of the hills??? i think they're both hilarious, entertaining, and completely genius because they purposely act over-the-top to draw attention to themselves and to gain even more fame. and it works. brilliant. but kanye, what you did was still incredibly rude and shows absolutely no manners, or morals for that matter, on your behalf.

lady gaga. did anyone else find her performance a little bit creepy or the slightest horrific? i'm sorry, i just don't handle blood well, or sickness, injuries, death etc. this performance was just a little bit much.

why did eminem win best hip-hop video? he's just so white-trash!

why was kristin cavallari sent out to present as the one rep for the hills? doesn't somebody who's been on the hills for at least the past year or deserve that privilege a little more? or maybe its just that kristin is the only attention whore remaining? is that even possible with when speidi still remain members of the cast?

where were ri-ri, britney spears, and the black-eyed peas??? and for heaven's sake, WHY. DID. THEY. NOT. PERFORM???!!!

last but not least of the disappointments was provided by lady gaga, who, after winning breakout artist of the year, dedicated her moon man to "god and the gays". i'm not trying to say anything is wrong with this statement, just a little awkward is all.

PLEASURES

first off, that michael jackson dance tribute was THRILLING (no pun intended). truly amazing. and the cherry on top was the wrap-up with janet jackson performing her duet Scream alongside the music video featuring MJ. was i the only one in tears by the end?

LOVED beyonce's performance of Single Ladies. As well as her incredibly classy award dedication to taylor swift. beyonce is not always my fav because sometimes i feel she's a bit fake but genuine or not, what she did truly was generous and kind. good political move on her part?

Muse. I LUF THEM. 'nough said. when can i see them in concert again???

Lastly, the awards could not have ended with a more perfect performance. i LOVE this song by jay-z and alicia keys and it couldn't have been more fitting for the awards!

CONCLUSIONS

i officially want to be a dancer so i can booty drop it like beyonce and don't stop til' i get enough like MJ.

i'm extremely excited for the two-part oprah-whitney houston interview that starts tomorrow. anybody else with me???

xoxo

lizard

THEME SONG

currently listening to Whitney Houston's new cd I Look to You, i found this gem of a song (as fellow blogger/friend burntmustard would say): "I Didn't Know My Own Strength".

take a peek (and learn a little portuguese too!) as always, brought to you in form of a techno remix (one of my greatest pleasures in life):

for those of you who know me and know what i've been through this past year should be able

to see how this relates to my life and just why I have coined it my theme song of the moment!

(refer to my first post of the year in case you need to refresh your memory.)

good news is that i have now realized i am MUCH stronger than i ever thought i was. i also

know that i am capable of so many things and have such a grand potential that i would have

NEVER realized had i not been through what i went through.

Moral of the story is: i had to go through shit to know my own strength :)

LATELY

I've been second guessing myself a lot lately and it's really gotta stop! Solutions anyone?! I'm trying to tell myself over and over to just keep moving forward without looking back. But it is HARD!

In other news, I got back from my trip to the East coast a couple of weeks ago. I had a blast! It was so relaxing to escape reality (even though reality is not too bad...living in southern california...) and not worry about job hunting for about a week or so. I got to read A LOT! I got to see Williamsburg (A COMPLETE LETDOWN!!!), the Outer Banks in North Carolina (BEAUTIFUL!!!), and Washington D.C. (seriously, such a cool city...who knew?!) Top memories include a run-in with an incredibly, horrendous, vicious stinky cheese...nicknamed by John "The Butt Cheese", lots of lovin' and lickin' from Pudger (my adorable, long-haired Chihuahua faux-nephew), torrential downpour and thunder/lightning storms of which I have never seen the likes (not even close...), the heat and humidity...which I LOVED (I'm weird), trying to scare John when he came home late one night from the movies, but failing miserably (what a waste of two hours staring out the window, thinking that every car that pulled into the parking lot was him), my utter disappointment with Williamsburg, and last but not least, finally meeting my adorably precious cousins' sons (Gavin and Joshua). Thanks to Ashley and John for the treat! I was spoiled (and then some)! They had a lot guts to put up with me for a week! Thanks guys :)

Currently, I am about to go shower after a BEAUTIFUL day at the beach and pool with friends! I'm headed to Santa Barbara tomorrow with my friend to Kim to spend the weekend with our friends Katy and Marleigh. I'm so excited because this will be the first time for me actually stopping and parking in Santa Barbara (I've only ever just driven through). I can't wait...I know it will be so much fun!

Last but not least, I am in the process of lining up a job at Nordstrom. There is a lady who goes to our church here that is the regional manager for all Nordstrom's in the West (ie. all of California, Nevada, Utah, etc). She is going to help me out...what a sweet connection to have, I know! I'm planning on sticking at home for the next few months so I can save up some money and move to LA. There, I hope to delve deeper in the fashion world!

So everyone, please wish me luck as I head into this next stage of my life and help push me forward fast so I can better resist looking back and second-guessing myself!!!

SUMMERTIME AND THE LIVIN'S EASY

So I decided that since it is now summertime, I needed to brighten-up my blog's "look" a bit; hence the warmer colors. I'm still trying to figure out how to add patterns and designs and other such things to make my blog a little more funky and interesting...so if anyone knows how, PLEASE TEACH ME!!! As you are probably all aware, it has been quite some time since I last posted. Since then, I have passed several milestones in my life and feel extremely proud and accomplished. Most importantly, I have finished my career as a BYU undergraduate and I have successfully completed my first marathon! GO ME.

I couldn't be happier with the way my life is panning out right now. I had a great, carefree, and lazy summer in Provo, laying out at the pool by day, and having some much-needed girl time by night. Throw in a season pass to Seven Peaks Water Park and a little summer lovin' and I think you may understand just why my summer has been SO perfect! To top it all off I have met someFABULOUS new people, had some experiences and adventures of a lifetime, and get the opportunity to travel to the east coast next week to visit my sister, her husband, and my faux-nephew Pudger (their dog). During my stay, we will make a much anticipated first-time (for myself) trip to DC. I couldn't be more excited!

Back up to reality...termination of my career as a university undergraduate means that I have begun the much dreaded JOB HUNT (dare I say it?) My dream is to work in the fashion industry, so that is where I'm looking, but with the way the economy is right now, I may have to settle for any job that comes my way...argh, I don't want to...so wish me luck and send some leads my way! 

Love to you all who have been there for me through thick and thin over the past six months. I have found some truly amazing friends who have been my rock, or shall I say gem, because they are all BEAUTIFUL. Thank you for all the love and support and I only hope that I can one day return the favor you have so graciously bestowed upon me. Last but not least, stay tuned because Lindsey is back in the blogosphere, bigger and better than ever before! 

SO I'M ACTUALLY DOING THIS!

It's official!  I will be running the Utah Valley Marathon on June 12th!  I can't wait!  It sounds awesome because it starts up Provo Canyon just below the Deer Creek Reservoir and then you run all they way down and out of the canyon to the Provo Towne Center Mall.  I started training a week ago.  My first goal is to build my endurance.  Yesterday I ran 40 min.  Tomorrow I plan on running 45 min. and building up by 5 min. each time I run until I am running approximately 8 miles.  8 miles 4-5 times a week and then long runs every saturday and that's the plan!  Hopefully I can do it!  I have a few guy friends who said they might train and do it with me so that would make things a lot nicer...plus my Dad says he wants to run it with me...haha who knew?!  Apparently I am popular...at least for the moment...On top of lots of running I've also been attending with regularity Power Pump!  I'm finally getting back into the groove of things and am LOVING IT!  I feel healthy and happy :)

YA LLEGA LA PRIMAVERA

Who is ready for spring break?  ME.  While I am very ready for a spring break and continually mourn the fact that BYU does not have one, I do have some things that are carrying me through at the moment:

1) Spring in Provo is around the corner!=Bike rides to Guru's and laying out at the King Henry pool ALL. DAY. LONG.

2) Teaching English in Korea.  (Note this is not 100 percent official)=Being a celebrity, having 3-hour work days, and traveling extensively and adventurously throughout Asia with some of the funniest guys around!

3) Being done with school. FOREVER!...maybe.....

4) Running the Utah Valley Marathon in June. (Note, this is also not 100 percent official...I need to look into the matter further).

So the list is kind of short, yet full of uber exciting things!  If I could choose a song to best describe my current mood, it would have to be Pussycat Dolls "Top of the World"...check it out...yes I know, I listen to far too much PCD.  But duh, I'm a girl!

out of dicks grow beautiful babies :)

ummm some people my age are now having babies...

DAUNTING

I am constantly trying to think of a specific word lately when I am expressing my current challenges to others.  The word is daunting.  For some reason, I can never remember the word.  It seems to reside only on the tip of my tongue.  But yes, as I think about the future, certain things seem rather daunting.  It's almost as though I am starting from ground zero right now...in many ways.  I know that I have a long road ahead of me along which I must grow, learn new things, and take great leaps of faith.  But that is life.  Sometimes when you don't know exactly how your future is going to play out it is scary, and sometimes you almost want to give up.  But you can't give up.  NEVER GIVE UP.  And if you ever do give up, make sure that it is only on someone or something that is getting in your way as you travel down the road of life, because we don't want any accidents now...do we???

PROCRASTINATING...

Here I sit in the library, supposedly writing my capstone paper (I have about 13 pages of the required 25 completed).  Why do I love to procrastinate SO much?  Well, in reality, I don't LOVE it, yet I still do it ALL the time.  For some reason I work better under pressure when time is running out and the last minute has almost arrived.  Lately, however, I've been waiting until PAST the last minute to get things done.  Maybe it's senioritis or maybe it's the immense stress I've been under lately...I don't really know.  But currently, I have about an hour until I must email a copy of my rough draft of my capstone to my professor and I should have about 20 pages written but I really only have 13.  13 is an unlucky number...surprise SURPRISE, just like my life has been recently.

I am not an unlucky person, however.  In fact, I have had some very lucky things happen to me over my lifetime.  One such lucky occurrence would have to be the opportunity I had to study abroad in Spain and all of the life experiences, eternal memories, AND eternal friends that were gained from it.  Case in point, THE SIX CHIX.  We are FABULOUS!

  

HOOLIEEEE, our senior member, traveled to Thailand to teach English for a year, but on a whim and taking a risk for love, came home approximately 11 months early, and indeed gambled her way to success!  

Madiswan is getting married to her missionary in two months, and despite her missionary's two year absence, managed to kiss only one boy AND to take a liking to NOBODY else even amidst multiple dates/week and numerous fine, handsome and qualified suitors!  

Tiffany is married and excited to spend the rest of her life in KANSAS!  She will open her future 5-bedroom-home to the Six Chix on numerous occasions in order to host marvelous Six Chix reunions in which we will go to the replica Plaza de Espana (original in Seville) and dance around for the Asians to take photos of us.  

Raquel Gato is nearly engaged and just received a metallic, dark blue, full body suit in the mail.  She has already role-played the role of Cat Woman 754 times for Babs, her amazing long-legged, long distance running lover who does it longer!  

Laurena is currently serving a mission in the Croatia/Slovenia/Serbia&Montenegro/Bosnia&Herzegovina/every other cool part of the world mission!  She sings Croatian lullabies to the two-years-her-junior male missionaries. AND. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. IS. IN. LOVE. WITH. HER.  

Last but not least, Rindsey (that is myself) will graduate from BYU within the next four months whereafter she will try to find a job that has ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to do with her major!  She hopes to conquer the world, her first strategic step being to take over the Spanish ZARA empire as the Presidente de ZARA.

And those, ladies and gentleman, are the Six Chix.  What a wonderful blessing they have been in my life...never to be forgotten, NEVER to be forgotten!

GOOD DAY

Today was a good day.  I went to one class that didn't start until 2 pm which means that I laid around with my roommate Amanda practically until then in the family room in our pj's watching Keeping Up with the Kardashians (last night we all slept in the family room and had a girls night minus weird roommate). And then I spent the rest of the day at my aunt and uncle's, hung out with Cade my favorite cousin-baby, and Joe and Michelle and Natale.  I chilled like a pill and it was awesome.  Did absolutely NO school work...yeah I love life!  Except for that I'm totally going to hate it come tomorrow and Thursday when I basically have to bust out 10-15 pages of my capstone...LIFE IS AMAZING!!!

HUGE SIGH OF RELIEF

i'm ready to run again.

i'm ready to be a pump addict.

i'm ready to watch gossip girl religiously every week. and the city...and get caught up on d-hoes.

i'm ready for spring to come again and to enjoy riding my bike and laying out at the KH pool.

i'm ready to dream, breathe, sleep, and eat fashion.

i'm ready to venture out and make new friends.

i'm ready to reconnect with old friends.

i'm ready to start loving life again.

From down here at the bottom, all I can say is that things are definitely looking up!

So the last time I posted was in October.  Surprise SURPRISE.  I told you I probably wouldn't stick very well to the whole blogging world, and, as usual, I delivered.  But here I am, having just deactivated my facebook account for the first time ever and I have to find someway to get connected in the internet world.  So here again I turn to my blog.  Mind you, I will be returning to facebook eventually, I'm just super seriously sick of it right now.  I get on it all the time instead of going out in the world and doing real things.  So I'm trying to take a clean break, at least for a week or so until I can get my f-ing capstone rough draft paper written...AAAAHHHHHHHHH.  

So a quick update on life I suppose is in order.  Since my last entry I have completed my last Fall semester at BYU ever!!! (unless some plans change and I decide I'm not ready to leave school and enter the real world).  I have now begun my last full semester and it's really tough.  I have a season pass to The Canyons so it's been a release to go up skiing in Park City for the day whenever I get a chance.  Other than that my life has been not so fun.  My car got destroyed when a not-to-be-mentioned friend accidentally jumped my car battery the wrong way after it had died.  It fried my internal computer and had to be replaced at a cost of approximately $1500.  Not pretty. I was without a car and pretty much stranded in my apartment for about a month.   Also, I got very sick for a two week period, haven't been able to sleep well for almost the past month, and have had severe boy problems.  Alan and I broke up mid-January as a mutual "let's try to figure some things out" and since then it has turned into chaos.  My life has been turned upside down as my what once were future plans have now become very uncertain and I am forced to re-route my life.  I still love Alan very much, care for him dearly, and think of him as my best friend, but only time will tell whether or not it's meant to be.

On top of everything, it really doesn't help that all of my girlfriends are either dating someone seriously, engaged, or already married.  I feel very alone and have had some pretty dark days over the past few months.  I pray every day to just to make it through the day and for the strength to tackle whatever card life deals me.

In closing, I would like to give a serious thank you to those friends and members of my family who have been a HUGE support to me throughout this rough period in my life.  Honestly, without you guys, I'd be scared to think where I would be.  You know who you are and I want you to know that you have saved my life over and over, literally.

Old friends from Provo, if you're out there, please feel free to contact me.  I'm really looking to re-connect and have a good time like we used to.  I need it more than ever.

XOXO

LG